Falling Apart

So as you can see I have not blogged in forever.... there are reasons for that... first of all there is a ton of stuff going on with my daughter... and she is first and foremost in my life...
Then I went to this weird phase of not knowing what kind of wedding I wanted... big and fabulous or small and intimate... I am terrified that I am going to wake up on 01/23/2010 and have the biggest regrets that it was not worth it...I dont want that... I guess no bride really wants that.....My wedding planner told me that I needed to take 2 weeks off and not think about weddings... I did not take her advice at first (surprise surprise)...
I guess I dont want to spend 35k and then think hmmmm that could have been put elsewhere... I dont want any regrets the next night... Like a BAD one night stand...
Then I told my wedding wedding planner that I wanted to push the wedding off until 11/05/2010... I am not even sure if that is what I want to do... but I did not know what to do...
So I have given myself this week to figure out what type of wedding I want and when I want it ...
In the meantime I am going to do another thing that my planner advised and I am going to cut my list... I only want the people that I love and that love me the most....and that is that... there may be some hurt feelings... but I dont care... I dont want anyone there that I wont remember when I look at my album 6 months from my wedding date!
It may seem like I am all over the place... that is because I am... I dont know if every bride is this way but I know that I am... More to come....

Today's Meeting

Today is January 10Th and I have not blogged in a while, but I had a meeting with a photographer today and got me to start thinking... This wedding is going to be here before I know it... I know that alot of people say... you have over a year before you are getting married... but I looked down at my schedule from my wedding planner and I realized that one day soon I am going to be checking off the last item on my list and walking down the isle...
Your probably saying... and your point is???
Well I don't know really... I am just feeling really calm right now.. because I know that everything is going to get done and our wedding is going to be fabulous... I feel like I am going through the stages of grief..LOL (no pun intended)... But the first was denial... which I was truly going through this week during a melt down... and now i am ready to get into the trenches and do what needs to get done to make this wedding the event of 2010!!!

402 .... and counting

Today there are 402 days until I become a Mrs... I know that most people say that is a million years away, but it really isn't.. I am already feeling the pressure of putting on The... event to be at in 2010... (My wedding)... I am super excited that I can't even stand it... One worry that I have is that it will be anti climatic... I mean you plan for over a year (and for some people their whole lives) for this one day... and then that one day (from what I have heard) goes by in a blink... and then it is over... no more planning no more excitement... you are back to your real life... I don't want it to be a disappointment... I will have to think more about this...

First Meeting (with Eric)

We are in the process of getting dressed and ready to go for our first meeting with Eric the photographer...We are nervous and excited all at the same time. We think that photography is one of the most (if not the most) important element to making our wedding a success. At the end of the day... the pictures are the only thing (besides the husband...lol) that you have when the dust settles and the wedding is over... So we need to make sure that we make the right choice... At this point we have a top three and we are in the process of meeting with all of them... Today is the first day and we don't know what to expect... we want to ask the right questions and we have a list... but we will see what happens... I will update you later!!

Wedding Weight!!

Ok... So I looking at My Knot and I am realizing that I have a mere 406 days before the big day.. Yes I know that sounds like whole lot... but in reality once we get to the 1 year mark it is all going to be down hill... My problem is that I need to lose 50 pounds before the big day... I know I know... they all say it... buy for the body that you are now... but I cant... I wont... I refuse to be a fat bride... I will not be happy if that happens... I know how to lose weight... I am actually a professional at it.... and I will lose this 50 pounds... I will... I have 4 wedding dresses that I need to fit in... and I will not disappoint myself... I will be coming up with a plan in the next couple of days... but I want to think it through before I publish it...
Please watch my progress and help keep me motivated... I WILL NOT BE A FAT BRIDE

Finding a Photographer

So when we met with our wedding planner... our 2 things that we needed to get done ASAP was to get our venue booked and to book our photographer... So I have been to a bunch of Bridal Fairs (which I think that most of us do out of excitement when we first get enganged)... and I just had no connected with anyone... I starting using different websites to find a different kind of photographer... someone that just does not take the standard wedding photos...So I came across Eric from Raw Photo Design... and his pictures are fabulous and different.... I also found Tonia Sones... which I love her pictures also... and Candice has recommended Carla Ten Eyke to me... So right now I have a top 3.. I am meeting with Eric this saturday and I can not wait... I am in the process of compiling my list of questions so I dont forget when we get face to face... My Eric is going to be in town and we are both going to meet him... He has told me via email that he likes to get to kow his couples so that they are comfortable with him and in front of the camera... I really like that thought... I mean I dont want the wedding day to be the 2nd day I meet with him... I am totally excited and cant wait... I am also in the process of setting up meetings with the other 2 on the top 3... I will let you know what happens....

Ok ... So we are getting Married!

Ok... So my name is Jody and my fiance and I (Eric) got engaged on 09/07/2008...It is hard to think about telling my whole entire story in this first blog... I wanted to start this whenwe first got engaged but it did not work out that way... so the long and short of it is this... we are engaged... we have set a date...(01/22/2010)... I have 4 wedding dresses from EBay... I am on my second engagement ring... I was blessed to WIN... yes that is right I said WIN...the services of a fantastic wedding Planner (Shout out to Candice@ Jubilee Events)... I am in the process with her of planning this wedding... we are looking to invite 216 people and we have decided that we are going to have it at The Waterview in Monroe... that is another story (lol)... I am going to be writing a bunch of blogs but I wanted to just start the first one...
BTW I have a four year old daughter... a full time and part time job... and my fiance lives in NYC...I hope you enjoy reading my blogs as much as I am going to enjoy writing them!!!
Talk soon!